My Family and Addiction

I wish I knew the pattern to addiction. I have watched this "thing" destroy and rip apart members of my family (and other families) for far too many years now. Today is just a new day, different person (people). It's so very sad and the feeling of hopelessness is overwhelming. I can't imagine being their parent and watching it eat them up, affecting every aspect of their life. Having raised these beautiful babies, watched them grow, watched them take their first steps, say their first words, the excitement as they discovered each new amazing thing and to cover them in the protection of your very own life for most of theirs just to have them grow up and be unable to do that for them when they need it the most... It just breaks my heart for their mothers and fathers, sisters and brothers, and everyone else that loves them so much. I fear for my own children because it seems to be in the blood. I don't know if that is true, if it's the case or not, but it seems to really take a hold of the men in our family (and some of the women too) and it just tears them down and makes them unrecognizable. You don't know who will suffer it or what causes it, in order to be able to stop it from happening at all. You just worry and try to do your best to shield your children from it. I know one thing, I want my kids out of Henry County, asap. I fear that this county will swallow them whole if they stay here much longer. There is far too much accessibility to the bad stuff, too much crime, too many wanna be thugs living the "hard" life.

I can only hope that they know I am crazy enough to chain them to a bed and keep them away from that life if need be, and that they are scared enough to not want that to happen.

I don't know what it is that makes some people believe that their only way to deal with trauma, pain or tough luck is to give up their lives and the people they love to drugs and/or alcohol, but it seems to be the big thing nowadays..."having a difficult time?" "Awww, just hand it all over to this or that, you'll feel better in no time..." That's a bunch of crap. The devil is a lie! If you find yourself out there... lost, afraid, nowhere to go, please know that there IS always help. You just have to reach out and ask for it.

NATIONAL SUICIDE PREVENTION HOTLINE

CALL 1-800-273-8255

AVAILABLE 24/7

AMERICAN ADDICTION CENTERS

1-877-760-5773

AAC WEBSITE

AID IN RECOVERY

1-877-848-9697

AVAILABLE 24/7

AIR WEBSITE

THE RECOVERY VILLAGE

1-888-965-1907

TRV WEBSITE

SUBSTANCE ABUSE AND MENTAL HEALTH SERVICES ADMINISTRATION

1-800-662-HELP (4357)

AVAILABLE 24/7/365

SAMHSA WEBSITE

DRUG ABUSE HOTLINE

1-888-744-0069

DAH WEBSITE

GA DEPT OF BEHAVIORAL HEALTH AND DEVELOPMENTAL DISABILITIES

1-800-338-6745

AVAILABLE 24/7

DBHDD WEBSITE

MY RECOVERY HOTLINE

1-888-755-0346

AVAILABLE 24/7

MRH WEBSITE

There's just no excuse to continue down that path and worry your family, your loved ones and to just keep making bad choices and bad decisions, one right after the other when there are so many options available to you to get you the help that you need. No one can do it for you. No one can hand it to you. You have to stop being selfish and make the choice to be better for your kids, your parents, your siblings, yourself. And if you cannot find any other way, there is always a way...Jesus Christ came to Earth to help those who need him the most. Mark 2:17

On hearing this, Jesus said to them, "It is not the healthy who need a doctor, but the sick. I have not come to call the righteous, but sinners."

When you believe that you are alone, that your family has turned their backs on you...when you feel like there is no hope, no way out of the things that you have done, just remember that Jesus came to Earth for YOU, because of YOU and your need of Him.

You can turn it all around, you just have to make the decision to do so. And do it. 

Jesus, Friend of Sinners