Last night, we gave Kat just the Melatonin, which has been working great for her by itself, until the past few times we have given it to her. It seems to me that these meds work great for like 3-4 days and then they just stop working all together. You have to give them days in between taking them and then start them back on it. Last night, we gave her her Melatonin at 8pm. She stayed up, awake, whiny and combative, but awake, until well after 1am. I was so upset that the meds weren't working and we (Johnnie and I) were just feeling exhausted and frustrated. It's difficult handling this sometimes. We definitely have our moments when we look at each other and we just know that we're both spent. Our patience runs thin, sometimes it runs out completely. Like just a few minutes ago. She hasn't listened to anything we have told her for going on a week now. She is either ignoring us or she just isn't comprehending us. I really couldn't tell you which it is. On my bad days, she's just ignoring us. On my good days, I realize she may not be able to listen. Tonight everything came to a head and I yelled at her. Not my best moment by far, but it happens, sadly.
Tonight, she will be taking a Clonidine. I wanted to take her off all meds, but I just don't think that's feasible, especially if anyone in this house (Me), wants to ever sleep again. Man, I have so much on my plate right now, doctors appointments out the yin yang, starting school full time, taking care of all 4 kids and their constant, daily needs, trying to get myself healthy too so I can take care of them properly and be here to take care of them, trying to start my small business up to try to bring in some kind of income, and trying to maintain some kind of sanity and relationship with my husband, which has been severely neglected by both of us lately. It's tough!
The girls go back to school tomorrow. I know it sounds horrible, but I cannot wait for them to go back. Clara and Mary's fighting has gotten steadily worse. Mary even spent the entire weekend at a friend's house but as soon as she walked in the door, Clara was giving her grief over nothing. Just tiny little things that she turns into huge fights. Mary doesn't help any with her smart mouth and "I don't give a darn" attitude. I need a break! And that's a huge understatement. If I had a way, I'd totally run away for a weekend. :P
I start school tomorrow. I already opened up with my Introduction tonight. Tomorrow starts the real classes and assignments. I am extremely nervous. I do not have exclusive ownership of my brain these days, it's pretty well split 6 ways, me having the least of. I'm afraid I won't be able to hold the information or that I will make a mistake that costs me dearly as far as grades go. I am an anxious person anyway, so of course this would startle me a bit.
I am doing great on my weight loss. I am eating great, and it has not been as much a struggle this time as it has been in the past. I'm assuming it's due to my hanging on to some of the changes in our eating habits that were made in 2012. It has been much easier this time than it was when we first started learning better eating habits, more about nutrition, value of food, etc...I've also been doing really well with my workouts. I walked half a mile after breakfast this morning, and then I did 18 minutes of P90X (Plyometrics) this evening. Clara, Mary and Kat have joined me in my workouts (P90X and/or walking) so far. Johnnie even walked the half a mile with us today. Aiden was along in his stroller so not sure that counts as a workout for him, LOL :P
Our life is busy, busy, busy. Probably not so much compared to that of others, but for us it is pretty hectic and at times overwhelming. I look forward to this summer when we (hopefully) will have some down time and have a chance to just let out that long awaited sigh and finally relax. That is, in between surgeries of course. o.O
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