It Has Begun...

In Kindergarten, they don't send a behavioral report home weekly or every 6 weeks like some do..no, they tell you every single day just how much your child is acting up. I cannot even begin to tell you how hard this is. I have to correct her behavior when a bad report comes in because she can't continue the things she gets in trouble for at school, but she is 5 and she isn't like the rest of the kids. She cries every time and tells me how hard she's trying, but it's so hard to do it all right all day long.

My heart is broken for my baby. :(

She just doesn't work like the other kids. Her mind isn't the same, ya know? And I know, I have heard it all before, "She just needs discipline", "She is just a bad kid who doesn't want to do what she's told", "It's bad parenting", etc...but I am here to tell you now that it is none of that nonsense. She really runs on a different platform. She is wired in a different way. She is super, super freaking smart, she is articulate like you wouldn't believe, she understands book stuff, but her mind never slows down, even in her sleep. She is always thinking of a hundred different things at one time and it makes it hard for her to concentrate on the one thing you want her to stop and focus on.

It affects her behavior. If she can't slow down, she can't remember what you told her in the moment that her brain is pulling her into another direction. She knows what she is supposed to do if you ask her, but in the moment, she can't make the right choice. I don't know how to put it into words. But I understand it. I know her. I bet Moms of other ADHD and ASD affected children can understand though.

Her heart breaks when she gets in trouble. She wants so badly to "be good". I don't know what to do for her. This is what I have been dreading all summer. I knew this was coming. I wish there was a school just for kids like her close to us. Because even if the teachers say they understand and that they can handle it, they don't and they can't. They only know one way to treat kids and they only know one way to teach them. But not every kid fits into that one box. Kat is definitely outside of the box.

And I totally understand getting frustrated with her. Especially when she is just full on Kat. But to nit pick at her, knowing her circumstance, is just uncalled for.

One day though. One day my baby is going to show them all. She has something very special inside of her. She will come out on top, I know she will.

She had her 6 year old check up a few days ago. The first thing the doctor said was, "Have you discussed meds with Dr. B?" (We didn't see her usual Pediatrician). I knew it was coming.

So last night I got rid of all of our "bad food" and today I stocked up on GFDF (Gluten Free, Dairy Free) foods. I also ditched anything I could find in there that had artificial coloring. Thank God I was able to find the babies water flavoring without gluten or artificial coloring!

I am going to try to help her through diet before I let them try meds on her. I am terrified of giving her ADHD meds. Too many deaths in the past that can be linked to those meds. Not this blonde haired little beauty.

This is the gown they gave her to put on at the doctor. You can see what she thought of it. LOL She was cracking up at how big it was.