Waiting Sucks

I have an appointment to see the kids psychologist on the 28th of this month. He said he sees the parents first. And that's great, I'm really glad he does it that way, but the waiting part for him to see them, sucks. I need his help with these kiddos of mine. Clara needs his help, I swear y'all, the more I look into this stuff, I think she could possibly have ADD like me and Johnnie. She has most of the symptoms. I know for a fact that she has social anxiety, badly. And she isn't very open with us about things she's going through, so I'm hoping she will be more willing to talk to a doctor, one on one. I know it's going to take time for her to be comfortable enough to really open up to him, but I hope she will in time.

Kathryn needs to be diagnosed, like yesterday, so we can get her the help she needs. I know the psychologist is going to help her tremendously. I saw a video on FB tonight that had me in tears. It was Kathryn. Not really Kat, of course, but it was how she has fits. It broke my heart to watch. My heart broke for the child and her Mom. This is such a difficult thing to battle. Mostly because we are both so helpless in doing so. You really just have to ride it out and hope for the best outcome. You can't control it for them and they certainly have no control, so you're really just left grasping for anything that can help. I know Kat also has High Functioning Autism, I just know it. If he doesn't diagnose her with it, I will be floored.

Here's the video. Keep in mind, this is what we go through almost daily at one point or another.

Autism Meltdown

It's so sad what these kids go through. And it's super hard on us parents as well. No one ever wants to be helpless when it comes to their babies. And when you find yourself in that situation, you just feel lost and worthless. :(

I am so ready to just know. Not knowing if you're right, or what is going on for sure, 100%, is emotionally exhausting and can really just tear you down.


These are pictures that Kat drew on the bathroom doors a while back. She started making us come to the bathroom with her in November 2015. It has only gotten worse since, she has become more adamant about it over time. Well the other day we were in there and she showed me her drawings. I had seen them of course, but this was her first time introducing me to them. She said to me, "Look, Mommy. I drew these here so that there would always be someone in the bathroom with me." :)