Today was a beautiful day here in Georgia, wasn't it? The temperature was just right and the wind was blowing the leaves around beautifully. We were even fortunate enough to witness several leaf tornadoes in our very own front yard. They scared the babies but the girls thought they were cool. :)
We took the babies up to the top road and let them ride their Christmas toys again. Aiden drove his Batmobile and Kat rode her bike back and forth on the long stretch of road that runs at the top of the hill in front of our house. We all had a great time of it.
Today was just a really good day. I stopped to see God in everything today. I talked to Him quite a bit more than usual too... I don't know why. He was just there with me and on my mind, so I talked.
Marian joined us in the bike riding today too. Her right ankle was hurting her so we decided she should probably ride it out. She did a few laps and then had to go inside and go to sleep. Her body has been tired lately. She's been laying around and sleeping more.
About a week ago I was in the car with my Mom and sharp pains started shooting through my right calf, then cramping. It happened a few times and then it stopped. Immediately I thought of Gramma. My Gramma T., even though I only saw her a few times in my lifetime, meant the world to me. That lady was amazing!! She was tough and sweet all at the same time, a lot like my Papa (her son). She was funny too. I remember her smile the most and her sweet face. I remember how bad it hurt when she passed away and the shock of it for me. I was sure she would outlive us all just on sheer will. (She was tough, remember?) ;) I like to think that some of her lives on in me, I think I got some of my fireball from her. LOL
I went to see my Doctor today and after we talked a bit and she gave me a physical exam, she says she thinks that what's wrong with my leg is possibly a blood clot...just like Gramma. (I believe that's what took her from us.) She also told me that I really need to lose the weight. To say that I am terrified right now would be a serious understatement. I can barely hold a thought. My mind is all over the place. I have an ultrasound at 2pm tomorrow.
If you read these posts, please say a quick prayer that Mary will go into remission soon and that the ultrasound for me will be negative for blood clots. I'm not ready to face my mortality just yet, I still have 4 kids to see live their lives. Heck, I am still waiting to start mine and Johnnie's lives together, we've been on hold for many, many years. While I look forward to seeing Heaven, I don't think I am ready just yet...I hope He understands that.
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