Christmas Dinner (At Church)

I have to tell y'all this :)

So after Mary had to endure a very uncomfortable hour and 45 minute long MRI tonight, we went to our Ladies Christmas Dinner at church. We were an hour late, but we made it and I am so glad that we did, (Even though we were not dressed for the dinner because we thought we'd have time to come home and get ready after the MRI). Not only did Marian get a beautiful crocheted blanket that she instantly fell in love with (and will be able to curl up in when she's needs a warm cuddly blanket), but we got to hear the most amazing testimony from a wonderful lady that we adore and we were so blessed to be able to hear an incredible woman named Ms. Tammy speak. I cried tonight, a lot. I cried when they took Mary out to the MRI, after they showed me the scary video that told me she could die on the table if her heart stopped because of the medicine that they had to give her.... o.O And then I cried like a baby, which is so humiliating for me, in the middle of the dinner while Ms. Marylou gave her testimony and then again when Ms. Tammy was speaking to my soul. And then I cried again when I got home and checked my mail only to find a much needed, couldn't have been better timed check inside of a beautiful, sweet card. (I don't know if they want me to say who sent it, so I'm not naming names, but these wonderfully amazing people know who they are). 

So anywho, sitting there tonight in the church gymnasium, listening to what Tammy had to say felt like she was talking not only directly to me but about me as well. Her story about her relationship with her Dad struck a cord with me and hit really close to home, maybe too close. I love my Dad very, very much. He is and always will be my first ever hero and I love him dearly. But I feel like maybe I have lived a life that hasn't brought him much honor or could make him very proud of me. And I definitely do not believe that he knows how much I love and respect him. Her story made me cry, it broke my heart. But I'm glad I was there to hear it. I really needed to be there tonight, to hear all of it. 

She also spoke to us about strained relationships and how God doesn't want us to have these in our lives. We are supposed to be on good terms with everyone, not a single person should have ill will toward us because of us. And of course, this also hit too close to home. So I will be working to make amends to those that I have wronged in any kind of way and really trying not to find myself here again.

What an amazing night after a long, stressful day/evening. And then, at every table there was a gift bag with a present inside for each person attending the dinner. I opened mine when we got home...it was a beautiful Christmas tree ornament that says "PEACE". It is the only ornament on our tree. :) How perfect is that?? :D God always knows, doesn't He? <3