I am sitting here at my desk, in front of my computer, hand-writing 24 (not counting mess ups and toss-aways) invitations to her Baptism for her classmates. Marian couldn't do it herself. She tried, but her wrist just wasn't having it. So she asked me to do it for her, and of course Mommy is going to say "Yes, absolutely, baby! I've got this."
My wrist, my arm and my elbow are on fire! I have trouble with my hands a lot too. I don't know if it's arthritis or just age and years of not taking care of my body, but either way, it hurts! There's just no way that come 6:20am, I would be ok with looking her in her eyes and telling her I didn't finish her invitations.
They will be done. She will have them, you best bet.
But I had to take a break and give my wrist a rest, so I was just scrolling Facebook when I saw some really sad News. Joey Feek has slipped into a coma. I don't know if you know who she is, but she is a Country singer who has been fighting cancer. She is a daughter, a wife, and most of all a mother to a beautiful baby girl. I am so glad that she got time to say her "I love you's" and her "Goodbyes", but nothing ever prepares you for losing someone you love, or for leaving those who mean the most to you.
My biggest fear as a mother is losing any one of my children. My next biggest fear is leaving them.
I can't imagine what the family is feeling or what they must be going through. My heart breaks so badly for them. Even though I have experienced loss in my life, never a spouse or parent, and certainly not a child.
My cousin lost her amazing husband to brain cancer in February of this year and it is one of the most difficult things that our family has faced. We all felt his loss in one way or another, even if you weren't really close to him, you loved him because of the person that he was. But we didn't feel even a tiny portion of what his wife and daughters are still feeling.
The one good thing that came of them knowing, in my own opinion, is that they had time to not hold anything back. They could say everything that they wanted to say and they had the chance to make sure that everyone knew how they felt about them. Pride, fear of rejection, shyness, it didn't keep them from saying "I love you" or "I appreciate you in my life". They got a gift. They had a chance to put everything else aside and just live how they wanted to live.
Joey Feek's family is hurting tonight, no doubt. Their pain is deep. But I'm sure they also find comfort in knowing that her pain is over.
It just really made me realize that everything that seems big to us, all that seems so hurtful and scary, we could be dealing with something much bigger. I am thankful that we are all healthy and we are together. And even though the things going on in our lives do seem big to us and they are important to us, we are grateful that this is what we are facing.
My heart breaks for my cousin and for the Feek family. (Please have them in your thoughts)
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