It's been kind of a rough day here...but not a bad day.
Aiden's still sick, Clara and Mary are both hurting, (we didn't get to pick up Mary's pain meds today), Kathryn's night terrors are keeping all of us up at night, but they are getting better and better each time we pray over her before she goes to sleep. Her behavior while awake is a whole other story. She is the sweetest, most loving little girl, but she can also be very exhausting. (If you knew me and had to handle me when I was little, you know).
Aiden's still sick, Clara and Mary are both hurting, (we didn't get to pick up Mary's pain meds today), Kathryn's night terrors are keeping all of us up at night, but they are getting better and better each time we pray over her before she goes to sleep. Her behavior while awake is a whole other story. She is the sweetest, most loving little girl, but she can also be very exhausting. (If you knew me and had to handle me when I was little, you know).
I can't ever seem to get this house clean enough to counter the amount of chaos that is our family (and in my mind), and for someone with control issues and extreme anxiety, a messy, cluttered house is not a good thing at all. Anyone else able to relate to this at all?
We did get to bag up tons of socks and underwear of the kids that no longer fit them though, that took away the laundry baskets of clothes sitting around the house. One problem down, 100 more to go. :P
I am so ready to just be able to get this house in order and just sit back and relax and feel comfortable here. We will be working on that this next few weeks. If I can't control anything else in my life, I can control the mess. I need that little bit of control back, like now....before I really lose my mind.
We did get to bag up tons of socks and underwear of the kids that no longer fit them though, that took away the laundry baskets of clothes sitting around the house. One problem down, 100 more to go. :P
I am so ready to just be able to get this house in order and just sit back and relax and feel comfortable here. We will be working on that this next few weeks. If I can't control anything else in my life, I can control the mess. I need that little bit of control back, like now....before I really lose my mind.
And my truck? Oh man. My truck looks like Toys R' Us threw up in it. I have to work on that too. Having a messy vehicle is just as bad as having a messy house, (InMyOpinion). Even if I can't see it, I can feel it.
And the funny thing here is, I was such a messy kid!! I remember hearing my Mom upset because she wanted everything in it's place and my room would almost give her a heart attack every time she saw it. My floor would be gone, just nonexistent underneath toys and clothes. I feel for her now. I really do. Now I understand. And now that I want it to be that way, I have 4 kids plus 1 big kid (Johnnie). And it's just not gonna happen without me doing it. It's rough growing up and all of a sudden understanding where your parents were coming from. Adulting is hard.
Sailing (Peaceful Serenity) Music Video
I need a cup of ice cold zen tea, a steaming hot bubble bath and lots of soothing music.
*Oh the dreams and wishes of a mother*
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